Got protectors?

Life has been hard y’all.
And, that is a judgment.

We can all say 2020 really has been hard. It hasn’t missed with the beauty too.

This season for me has been full of immense change + pendulation.

Joy + bliss right along side grief + overwhelm. Movement + growth + travel coupled with confronting limiting beliefs + letting go in big ways.

What I find comforting is that each piece belongs, matters, & is allowed. I’ve created a life where every emotion, every feeling, is welcome. Met with gratitude. Loved even.

That is not to say it is easy or struggle free. 100% not!

Just this week, I jumbled my schedule & double-booked myself. I felt completely out of control & frustrated. Yet, when I PAUSED, & I asked myself what was happening, my protector stepped in & said, “you thrive in chaos!”

Wait. What?! I set that down year’s ago!

I was groomed to survive in the bob + weave, quite literally.
And so when sadness surfaced it seems I slipped back into old beliefs, my subconscious gave over to the need to protect & offered up busyness & the doer mode as comfort. It felt easier to struggle with he chaos & execute than to sit with my sadness, my grief, the changes.