Kintsugi — you can call me Sugi

Kintsugi — is the Japanese art of mending broken things, filling the cracks with gold to restore its natural shape while strengthening the item. “it’s very important that we understand the spiritual backgrounds or the history behind… the material.” “to find beauties in broken things or old things,”

“It’s one beautiful way of living, that you fix [it] by yourself.”

I’ve always had a knack for picking unavailable men. It is like this inherent, albeit learned skill which ultimately, if I am being completely honest, is covering for my inability to connect. And in reality, furthering the honesty as I read my own words back, I am capable deep down… I always have been, it is the looming disappointment in men that I run from, creating the lack of want to connect.

Let me break it down.

I am broken. Now, yes I have been put back together with gold, making me better and more valuable than before. And also yes, my scars are what make me beautifully me. The fact remains that I was broken down…